I am excited to announce that we have scheduled the CSection for......DECEMBER 8. I can't believe it is almost time to bring our daughter into this world. As i sit here and type this i have so many emotions running through my head. On top of all the hormones that already make me cry at a drop of a hat. I am excited, nervous, worried, blessed, scared and many, many more words of expressions. Time seems to have flown by but when think about time has really stood still (confusing i know). I have truly tried to enjoy and treasure this pregnancy.
Let's reflect (cloud....dreaming...) Jonathan and I started discussion in January on when would be a good time to starting trying for the second child. Since it took almost 2 years to get pregnant with Jackson we both were convinced that this would take at least a year maybe more. We had already knew we would not do everything we did to get Jackson here (when in the end none of the medical stuff succeeded). Our philosophy was if God want us to have another child he would provide (easy to type that now). So we started on what we thought would be a long trying adventure. The Dr (at my yearly check up in February) said it was likely that we would have to resort back to the infertility drugs (again do dr really know?). Well one evening in April i was not feeling well and i made the comment to Jonathan that wouldn't it be funny if i was pregnant (IN which both of use responded with a laugh) and we went about doing other stuff. Well that next morning i thought to my self (maybe to much info) when was i suppose to have my period, not really positive i decide i would take a test (which i had bought a lot of because i knew it would take them all). WELL surprise there was 2 LINES immediately almost as if the stick was screaming at me "you dummy, it is about time you tested". Keep in mind i try to get at work around 7:30 am so i get up a little before 6am. So i was half a sleep. Well that woke me up. I am not much for romance plus i was in shock, i busted open the doors to the bedroom, where Jonathan still lay asleep and scream "OH MY GOD I AM PREGNANT" to which my lovely husband respond (half asleep" "are you sure?" I immediately turned around grabbed the glaring pg test and said "You tell me". Then i busted into tears. I cried because i was excited, nervous, worried (all the same words i am today). We went to the dr that day (April 16) to confirm the test. This memory seems to have just happened yesterday. So in that sense this pregnancy has flown by.
Again fade into a dream..... The day we found out the sex of our precious gift from God. The appointment is set for July 25th (almost 19 weeks pg) at 2pm (Friday). The whole family has expressed their wants on the sex and the majority wants a girl. Jonathan really doesn't have a preference. I am riding the fence. A boy would be nice so Jackson would have someone his own sex to play with but A girl would be nice to because we already had a little boy. I was always told that your gut feeling is usually what it is. Well how do you separate your gut feeling with what everyone is saying (ie old wives tell and other people intuition). So i was nervous (very). As we get to the Dr i am past ready to find out. I lay on the table and the ultrasound tech starts doing her thing, to which we can't see at this point. She then turns the monitor and says are you ready, "Well of course". So she starts looking in that region, well the baby does not want to show anything, legs crossed. Finally the tech gets a quick snap shot and says "so, what do you think and shows us the picture on the screen, Jonathan does not respond and i just look at it and say "BOY?" she smiles and says "I think you are having a GIRL" I immediately place my hands on my face and start crying. As i look over to Jonathan he grabs my hand and laughs and what i thought was one tear in his eye and smiles. Then i hear in my head what she just said "I THINK". What do you mean you think, isn't that your job is to know!!!! So i say "Are you sure" and she responds that the baby is being modest and does not want us to have a really good picture. So she keeps looking and again says i am not 100% sure but 80% sure its a girl. Well if you know me, that's not good enough (my goodness 80%, an 80 is borderline C level). So she proceeds t tells use that i can come come back in a few weeks for a Sex determination scan to make sure. WELL dog gone it i wanted 100% or pretty close to it. So my next Dr appt i convince my dr to let me go back. Well Jonathan so graciously lets me go back at the cost of $100 to find out. That time we got closer to the 100% i was looking for and it was again confirmed at the 4D ultrasound. So if this baby comes out a boy it will be by the hands of god. Even though i have said since we found out i just know she will grow a thingy before she comes out, hahahaha.
But since we found out about the baby we have done a lot. Including me THROWING UP, ALOT!!!!!!! This year we have tried to dedicated as much time as possible to Jackson. We have been to Disney and to visit relatives. We have played, we have cooked, we have laughed, we have cried, and we have prayed.
So as i reflect on all the stuff we have done this year it seems like the time has been endless.
OK here goes my hormones:
To Jackson, I LOVE YOU!!! You will always be my baby and one of the true loves of my life. I wish for all the happiness in the world for you. Believe me when i say i understand what you will be going through over the next couple of months. I know you are just 3 and will not remember later on in life that there was a time before Juliette. People have told me for me to prepare myself for you to pull away but its hard. (WOW i have cried and it has taken me almost an hour to type this). I love you and i hope you know that.
To Juliette, I LOVE YOU! Mommy is so excited about you coming into our lives. I wish for you the same as i do for Jackson, All the happiness in the world. We look forward to you growing into being a Beautiful Lady both inside and out. I can't wait to meet you!
To Jonathan, I LOVE YOU!! Thank you for giving two beautiful children. I hope you know you are THE LOVE OF MY LIFE!! Also thanks for putting up with me during two pregnancy (HAHAHAHAH).
Ok i am through with the sappy stuff. I know some of this is personal but i plan on turning this blog into a scrapbook. And i want the whole world to know I love my family and treasure each moment i have with them. As i have reread my blog i know it sounds like i am going to die any day (I hope not). I just want to make sure that i express in words that i love them all and my feelings at this moment in time. Plus i am pregnant and all emotional.
I am sure this will not be my last ramble before the baby gets here.
